Down and Out in Marietta

I'm really down these days. Like really down. I've been feeling very lathargic lately and am wondering if it is a physical manifestation of depression. I don't want to shower, get dressed, put on my face...I certainly don't want to go anywhere. Until 3 days ago, I'd been dragging myself out at least once per day. I skipped yesterday and opted to veg on the couch ALL DAY, which made it much easier to stay in bed ALL DAY today. I'm supposed to go off with my dad and son tomorrow, and I'm afraid I'll make something up just so I can stay home.

I saw my doctor on Monday. He addressed my energy issue as typical--some people just take longer to heal than others. But I'm thinking it is more to it than that. I know the rapid weight loss (27 pounds!) can bring on a hormone shit storm. It is similar to my postpartum crazies, just without all of the sweating!

There were so many things I wanted to do around the house before having to return to work. I haven't done a single one of them. I try to tell myself, "Self, you've just had major surgery. Give yourself a break." Easier said than done.

Today was hard. Hope tomorrow is better.