Happy New Year

As of January 1st, I am officially 3 months out. I'm down 54 pounds and over approximately 34 inches. I'm about 1/3 of the way to my ultimate goal, which after 3 months, is not too bad. I started this journey wearing size 24 pants and 3X tops...now I'm wearing 18 pants (16 in skirts!) and 1X tops.

I've been going back and forth between feeling like I'm doing good to constantly comparing myself to others and their weight loss speed. I don't seem to be moving along as fast as others, but admittedly, I have not been really exercising. I know from experience that exercise has always the key for me to get pounds melting off.

I do worry sometimes that maybe I'm doing something "wrong" or that I've "broken my DS." Intellectually, I know that is ridiculous, but I do beat myself up over why my loss isn't as fast as others.

I've also noticed that my weight loss has a pattern to it--but not like others I've read about. I certainly have much more frequent "stalls." I lose a pound or two or four and then nothing for a week to 10 days. Meanwhile, the inches start coming off even while the scale isn't moving. Then I drop another few and hold for 2 weeks....body shifts again, more inches lost, but no scale movement.

I've been really frustrated, but I'm really trying to look at this pattern as what will be best for the elasticity of my skin. Since I'm not dropping quite so fast, my body has time to catch up. Maybe the loose skin situation won't be as bad as I fear once this all over.

Confessions:

In addition to not really exercising, I have not been as vigilant about my vitamins as I should be. I'm working on it. It is just taking me more time to get into my rhythm than anticipated.

I'm on the scale several times a day. I'm compulsive about it and I wish I could tear myself away.

I'm constantly comparing myself to others' stats. It makes me feel down about my own success, and while I know it is irrational, I can't seem to stop these thoughts.

Surgery may fix your body, but it certainly does not fix your head.

Goals:

My goals for the new year include EXERCISING (my DH and I have joined a gym near our hosue), getting back on track with my vitamins (I have my labs this week, so I'll soon know what the damage is), and to celebrate my continued success and be nicer to myself!